- Betrayal -

It’s not easy to handle a serious relationship whereby u know ur degree of loyalty n u know as well who ur partner was, or is. Sometimes it just gives u utter headache thinking about unnecessary things about ur partner but u just can’t help it. Well this normally happens to those who are in the upper degree of loyalty. To those who place themselves in the lower degree of loyalty, it’s like they can never stop doing ‘bad things’ if u know what i mean. Why choose this kind of person in the first place? The answer is cliché; Love is blind. Or some might emotionally state, “i didn’t know he/she was a bitch until recently!”. For that matter, they dump their partner so much as a blink of an eye. They are however people who honour the feelings of love who still forgive (n forget?) n risk their heart just because leaving him/her feels like being cut by a blunt sword. Imagine that?

I’ve heard of many friends whose hearts have become as hard as dead rock after experiencing several waves of hard relationship n being betrayed so many times. End up he/she now can merely say hey who’s counting, all i know is that i won’t be falling in love ever again. End up, from the higher degree of loyalty, they fall miserably to the lowest degree of honesty. I can’t wait till i reach that status. Hmm.

- Intersection -

Have you ever experienced having difficulties of choosing between things that u like? Let say u like two things equally but u can only choose one and it is for ur life time. U have to let go the other one which u love so much. What if the 'things' are not things? What if the 'things' are persons? Persons who are humans. Humans who have feelings. You pick this one, that one would suffer from rejection. Even worse, YOU suffer as u see that person goes off of ur grip. Because u love both parties equally so much.

It's a really frustrating dilemma. But that's how things play in life. Sometimes u cant get everything that u want and u have to make a sacrifice. Sometimes u cant please everyone around u. This is how sometimes u have to be a bit selfish. Or at least people see u as being selfish. But u know how hard it is to make the decision. Guess u just have to bear the consequences. What u choose might not be the right person now. Maybe later. Two three years later. Ten years maybe.

Let see from another angle. What if u are one of that persons who will have to be chosen? One, penantian itu sungguh menyiksakan. Two, u die from being the one not chosen. Because u r a loser.

- X.O.X.O -

""""""""Who am I? It's a secret I'll never tell. X.O.X.O, Gossip Girl..""

Leisure times sometime are best 2 be wasted just like that without anything beneficial 2 do. Some people fill it with spending time shopping n wasting time. For wealthy people, every time is leisure time n they go nuts spending money to god know what. My friend introduces me this series about scandalous life of Manhattan's elite families. They show displays how rich people exploit each other to show who is more powerful, in their own ways. So this is what I do during my leisure time. Finishing this series. Haha. Fun though.


Serena Van Der Woodsen; Dan Humphrey's gf, Chuck Bass's step sister to be.

- Baby Thought -

I always imagine how those days would be like when I had my own baby. Or babies. I imagine tears of happiness, laughter of amusement, stare of unbelievability, and breath of relief. Well no one really knows whether he has enough time to live the beautiful days with babies on their lap. Yeah I like babies. I love looking at them when they sleep, cry, smile and what not. But frankly I don't know if I ever has my own. Heh funny thought.

My sister's 1st boy, Dani. -8 June 2010-

- It's Now or Never -

Many people have difficulties of letting go their most favourite stuff. They get too attached to the stuff until they feel losing it means losing everything. This won't be happening to those who have prepared themselves for what's coming, expectantly or unexpectedly. Throughout my life, I learn so many things happen when u least expect it. And recently I experience another one. The best thing that ever happens in my life turns to be a memory that is so hard to forget. Luckily, I've got something interesting to distract me from all that and I think I manage to get over it sooner than I think. Even now I'm pulling everythng in my power to concentrate to this new thingy. Mmuah2. =)

- Dark n Light -

It is dark it is light. It is sweet it is sorrow. It is happy it is sad. And that is my heart. Everybody's heart. When u r in dark side, u feel like everything around u is gloomy, nothing glows in the dark.

- Midnight -

It's midnight now. My eyes are still wide open. It's Thursday already. My class is not over yet for this week. This short sem, it's all about Arabic and Computer Application. Luckily the semester is coming to its end, soon! Yet I'm still worried. I don't know if I can do well in the final exam especially Comm. App. Many condemn the relevance of this subject to be taught as a core course. Means, many dislike it. Including me, of course. It's boring and not exciting. All about technology and learning theories. I don't hate it. Just not really a big fan of technology and those stuff.


This sem, Arabic class is quite different. We are required to do a presentation, not just presenting, but acting! And I just finished composing the dialogue and ready to performed. Well, not really. My group mates are still having difficulties in understanding my handwriting yg macam org malas. Haha. I write very fast in Arabic. But it's OK I'll help them. Seems like they can pronounce it better. Wish us luck in dramatizing. =P